This article nailed it… I’ve been waiting for this day to come after a stretch of weeks of solid positive feelings and gratefulness (#serenitynow). It’s come to a point where looking at bills and the reality of life has caught up with me. It’s actually a good feeling which is something my old self would think is crazy. Why wish to be anxious when you can breath deeply and feel happy and fulfilled? And it’s not wishing to experience these feelings but it’s learning from them. Life is never… evvvvver going to be lived in a bubble. Something can always knock you off course, a shitty news story, health issues, a bill, stepping in dog poo, etc. but don’t live in that space. Meditation, extreme focus on self-development and a move across the country isn’t going to break years of habits. The frustrating part is knowing the answers and still getting it “wrong”; knowing the triggers and not being able to stay away.
Balance is key… a couple weeks back I met two of my biggest influencers in my life right now (Lewis Howes and Andy Puddicombe), went to Disneyland for the first time with my family and went on stage at an improv club in front of 40 strangers and performed a scene with an Australian accent… each of those on their own would be emotional wins and waves most people could ride for weeks or months. Me it was gone within 24hrs… the expectation that I’m this self development journey is all or nothing and no taking my foot off the gas caught up with me during a slow week. I hold myself to such high expectations because I can see the peak performing me and I love that person. However I have no sympathy or allowance for less than that... which is bananas. You can’t sustain that peak… it's called a peak for a reason if you lived there that's called a plateau... Accepting the peaks and valleys of a never ending journey and be OK with a stumble here and there is the goal.
Just be grateful and look back at accomplishments and relish in those once in a while but don't stay there like that loaner Peter Pan... you learn a thing or two about the Disney characters when you go on the rides in your 30's.
Normal guy with comedic tendencies... introverted with extroverted tendencies... yogi with stressful tendencies... over 30 years old with under 30 year old tendencies